Today at 3:00, Piper will complete her last dose of chemotherapy and will be leaving the hospital. Chad and I have a 5:00 phone consultation with Dr. Leung who is heading the NK cells clinical trial at St. Jude. We have a variety of questions regarding their treatment and Pipers care that we will be asking him before making the decision to continue seeking this thing called cure or to bring our girl home and enjoy the fabulousness she is.
Our biggest fear is making the "wrong" decision, though in my heart I know we are seeking God and in the there cannot be anything except His peace and direction. Please pray we feel those two things. And please do pray for that miracle that God is so very capable of... I ache to have Him use Piper as a testimony.
For those of you who cannot see mu Piper... She is very much still the girl she was last week. She is happy and is totally oblivious to the worry surrounding her. More than ever I am praising God that Piper never seems to be symptomatic. Her blasts are dropping as her white count responds to the chemo and I imagine that is helping any pain she may have had when she relapsed.
It is because of Pipers healthy demeanor that I am struggling with correlating the beast in her body with the beauty she resounds with. Only Gods clarity will ever help us decide this horrendous of a choice.