Yesterday I hated Facebook. To be true, I often hate it but find it to be a integral part of maintaining friendships with people I have met all over the world...plus I am nosy by nature.
But yesterday I was annoyed, unbalanced and overwhelmed with the differences in each new status that popped up. At one point I had a father asking for prayers for his sons lumbar puncture, that no cancer would be evident. And directly below that was a woman complaining about still being pregnant with a healthy child. Another woman was posting pictures of her beautiful daughter who recently was born without her left arm. And below that, someone complaining about having to work that night. And I know that all of these people are wonderful but truly, truly, truly I am baffled at what people get in a snit over.
I also had to leave a mothers group because I couldn't hear anymore about teething troubles or what to do when someones 5 month old was still not sleeping though the night. My tolerance and grace well has gone dry although I am as usual, the one who most needs both of those things. Instead I am totally dry and I am at my wits end these days reminding myself to appreciate my own two daughters to focus on insipid complaints from people who are not able to enjoy the blessings they have.
The father who waited to hear results from his sons lumbar puncture has now been notified that the cancer is within the spinal fluid as well as in his young sons liver. At this point he will be going on his Make A Wish and his family will be left to enjoy his last days with him. Can you imagine that?
And the mom will have her healthy child and another mom is loving her beautifully different daughter and the other person will be paying their rent with the job they don't appreciate. And I will be attempting to push my immense fear at ending Pipers treatment into a dark corner of my brain while appreciating how healthy and happy my daughters are today.
That's the only gift I can give you Story family, I can appreciate and love on my girls the way you have shown me to. To complain about anything right now is wrong. And this goes for you too, readers. If you are finding your little life too hard at the moment, know that you are blessed enough to even have the simple mental capacity to do so. Fathers, spouses, daughters, lovers, friends and neighbors have breaking hearts today and would do anything to have your frustrations and stresses.