Monday, August 8, 2011

facebook stinks

Yesterday I hated Facebook. To be true, I often hate it but find it to be a integral part of maintaining friendships with people I have met all over the I am nosy by nature.

But yesterday I was annoyed, unbalanced and overwhelmed with the differences in each new status that popped up. At one point I had a father asking for prayers for his sons lumbar puncture, that no cancer would be evident. And directly below that was a woman complaining about still being pregnant with a healthy child. Another woman was posting pictures of her beautiful daughter who recently was born without her left arm. And below that, someone complaining about having to work that night. And I know that all of these people are wonderful but truly, truly, truly I am baffled at what people get in a snit over.

I also had to leave a mothers group because I couldn't hear anymore about teething troubles or what to do when someones 5 month old was still not sleeping though the night. My tolerance and grace well has gone dry although I am as usual, the one who most needs both of those things. Instead I am totally dry and I am at my wits end these days reminding myself to appreciate my own two daughters to focus on insipid complaints from people who are not able to enjoy the blessings they have.

The father who waited to hear results from his sons lumbar puncture has now been notified that the cancer is within the spinal fluid as well as in his young sons liver. At this point he will be going on his Make A Wish and his family will be left to enjoy his last days with him. Can you imagine that?

And the mom will have her healthy child and another mom is loving her beautifully different daughter and the other person will be paying their rent with the job they don't appreciate. And I will be attempting to push my immense fear at ending Pipers treatment into a dark corner of my brain while appreciating how healthy and happy my daughters are today.

That's the only gift I can give you Story family, I can appreciate and love on my girls the way you have shown me to. To complain about anything right now is wrong. And this goes for you too, readers. If you are finding your little life too hard at the moment, know that you are blessed enough to even have the simple mental capacity to do so. Fathers, spouses, daughters, lovers, friends and neighbors have breaking hearts today and would do anything to have your frustrations and stresses.


  1. I'm glad that I'm not the only one that gets frustrated over people lacking to see the bigger picture and being grateful for all that they have. Praying that sweet Piper would continue to do well and that your your fears would cease. Know that you are thought about and prayed for daily.

  2. People don't know how to count those blessings of the ordinary things until they face a situation like childhood cancer. I hope God will help me keep the kind of perspective you have written about everyday!

    Send me your email address!!

    I love you! Heather

  3. Allen and I have both struggled with fear this week. Even though we have no reason, all the stories we are hearing just plain have us down. Too much bad, sad news.

    Thinking of you and hope you'll come back to FB. I don't want to lose touch.

    Will you email or text? (770) 714-1967.

    Love, Me

  4. We all need a little perspective at times and you have had a much bigger share than most. Little Wyatt has only been in the NICU for 5 days so far and it really does change how you look at things when it's your own child. For you to have two years of fears and frustrations and survive like you have, is amazing. I can't imagine those families that go through so much without the faith and love of their Heavenly Father. If I didn't have Him to take away my worry, I don't think I would be able to function at all. Still praying for you and your sweet family.

  5. Excellent post and well written. I enjoyed the "mental capacity to do so" comment. Everyone can and should take a deep, dark look inside themselves and be grateful for that ache and pain that nags them daily. They get to "experience" pain, and or life, without it being told its about to end.

    Enjoyed Susanna-

    Mark "Miriam's Husband"

  6. Thank you for this reminder. It is so easy to get caught up in our every day lives and forget that there is more going on than our small world. I pray for your family each day, even when I don't know what to pray for. You are such a strong woman, an amazing mother with wisdom and patience beyond my comprehension. Your struggles have been battles that you have fought with grace, diligence and your Susanna charm. Please keep fighting the fight- even when you don't know where you are going to find that strength. I admire you for what you speak, you stand for and all you do for your family. I am sorry that I was one of those burdened you with my shallow complaints. You are one of the most amazing people I know. As this next chapter begins you will be in my heart all day every day.
    "The Lord is close to the brokenhearted. He recues those whose spirits are crushed."
    Psalm 34:18