Both my girls are currently obsessed with the movie Annie. Linley received it for her birthday and she has quickly leaned all the songs and even breaks out some sweet orphaned little girl moves...and Piper just wants to be like her sister so she also is digging Annie.
And all day I have seen Linley belt out lyrics and tonight I was singing Tomorrow to Piper as I scratched her back and wooed her into a nights sleep and I realized I didn't truly know the words. Thankfully my two year old didn't care though I am certain Linley would notice right off the bat.
Now that Piper is snoozing I am searching the lyrics and loving them.
"the sun will come out tomorrow
Betcha bottom dollar that tomorrow
There will be sun
Just thinking bout tomorrow
Clears away the cobwebs & sorrows
Till there's none
When I am stuck in a day
That's gray and lonely
I just stick out my chin and grin
The sun will come out tomorrow
So you got to hang on till tomorrow
Come what may!
I love you...tomorrow
You're only a day away."
Now, lest anyone think I am remotely as cute as Annie or either of my daughters while singing this, please know that only Piper encourages my singing and Linley has begun to look mortified when I do more than hum.
Thankfully for me, my maternal grandmother taught my own mother that "if you can't sing well...sing loud"
So we all do. And often.
And if these are the currently cool words to sing in my home I will hope that the girls both take them to heart and find the joy and optimism in looking ahead a little bit. In this ghastly world of cancer, so often we are told to focus on today... And while I think that is a necessary mindset to have to survive when the battle drones on, I also think that we as humans need to know that something is always around the corner... And we need to hope its good and worth waiting for.
Maybe that's just me.
Though I really doubt I am alone.
Now our personal Tomorrow will hopefully consist of discharging this joint. Granted we are really only moving across the parking lot but we will have locks on the doors and the ability to walk around without socks should we so desire. With this freedom comes a long list of medications and tpn and heightened responsibility that we are quite ready to work out.
The Natural Killer Cell infusion happened today around 5:15 and it was as anticlimactic as we anticipated. The actual syringe was only 10 ml in volume but was packed with several million of my natural killer cells...hopefully they are as pissed off at leukemia as I am. There was a room full if medical staff watching her vitals and a wall full of emergency response medication should something arise. Thankfully, the infusion went without problem though her heart rate and blood pressure today has been elevated and her oxygen has needed help... Not that she cares as she is acting just fine and happy. They continue to watch her closely.
Thus, we have Tomorrow. Im looking forward to it because sometimes living life a day at a time makes me feel stagnant and heaven only knows that looking backwards is the quickest way to emotionally run amuck...
So, tomorrow we keep our eyes on you.
And we sing. Loudly and badly.