Today is the St. Baldricks fundraiser being held in Pipers honor in Athens. Because of Pipers code on Thursday night, Chad and Linley had to turn around and return to the hospital, much to Linleys dismay. Thankfully my father flew up to Memphis yesterday and kissed on Piper then took Linley back with him to Atlanta so she could participate in St. Baldricks. This is only one example of how blessed we continue to be with support.
Pipers night was quiet. They had to add her back on a small drip of dopamine because her blood pressures were dropped. And the oscillator came loose early this morning causing us all some fright but Piper still was able to hold her own while they bagged her and replaced the tubing. They adjusted her NG tube and attempted to adjust her foley catheter but she is simply too swollen. She remains fever free.
The CBC from 4:00am labs today showed that Pipers leukemia blasts are at 79%. Only 24 hours ago they were found to be 30%...her cancer is rampant. Everything is tied together and everything is painful to watch.
I want to hold my girl again. I miss hearing her little voice and I miss feeling her limbs wrapped around me. While I still plead for a miraculous healing, I also plead that God will show us mercy. Watching Piper in this state makes me anxious...I'm thankful today only for the simple truth that Gods grace is sufficient for the pains I have.
Tomorrow I will receive the grace needed to deal with whatever happens.
Today I will lean and sob.